I was sharing on facebook that I haven’t blogged a whole lot lately. I feel like if I blogged every day, it’d pretty much go like this:
Monday- whine about missing hubby, then reprimand myself for whining
Tuesday- Brag about what awesome kids I have and then whine about them not having their dad around.
Wednesday- whine about hubby working so far away, then kick myself in the a$$ for being such a whiner
Thursday- whine about hubby being gone over 8 months last year, then kick myself in the a$$ again. Ouch, that’s starting to bruise now.
Friday- show appreciation for all the blessings I have in my life including a hard working hubby who’s living far away, without his family, so we can get our bills paid. I kicked myself in the a$$ hard enough the day before. :p
Saturday- whine about our house not selling. Then beat my head against a wall because I know EVERY ONE is SO SICK OF HEARING ABOUT IT! Including me!!!
Sunday- I’m too busy whining to God, to whine on the blog today.
Really! I don’t blog half the time because I’m too busy arguing with myself!
I actually do spend a LOT of time arguing with myself. A friend on facebook said I shouldn’t beat myself up so much, but really, don’t feel bad. I’m not beating myself up so much as I am reminding myself to choose another path for my thoughts, my attitude, each and every day!
Yesterday, I did something I haven’t done in quite a while. I spent some money, for no particular reason. What brought me to the point of being willing to spend some hard earned cash on something other then bills and food? This continual arguing with myself. This relationship between me, myself, and I, it’s getting too complicated.
I bought a package of these:
http://shop.lilblueboo.com/product/choose-joy-wristbands-pack-of-20-shipping-included
Now instead of arguing with myself, I’ll just keep repeating, “choose joy, choose joy!”
If you’ve read Ashley’s story of “choosing joy”, you’ll know why there’s no reason I can’t, and shouldn’t, do the same!
